No more wig!

I am so excited to announce that I no longer wear my wig!  I am so proud of myself.  I prayed long and hard for the courage to ditch the wig.  Some might not think it is so hard but it is hard when you look entirely different without it.  So the last day that I wore it was Thursday, June 18th.  That was also the day we left for our weekend getaway ATV trip to Fillmore, Utah.  I never wear my hair camping anyway so the weekend wasn't a big deal.  I even forwent a hat when we went to dinner at Costa Vida during the trip.  I just didn't care, I figured nobody would know me anyway since I was three hours from home. 

When we got home on Sunday I was creating anxiety for myself about Monday and if I should wear my hair or not.  I knew that on Monday night my best friend Heather was going to trim up my neckline to make my new style look like a style.  Waking up on Monday morning I still did not know what I was going to do.  I grabbed the wig to put it on and decided right then and there that I am done!  I tucked it away in the closest and off I went.  As I was kissing Jeff goodbye while he was still sleeping bed, I told him that I wasn't wearing my hair or a hat today.  He called me when he woke up and asked if I decided to wear it because it wasn't in the bathroom hanging up like it usually is.  I told him that I put it away forever!!!  That night when he got home from work he told me that he was talking to his boss and he told her how proud he was of me for going without my hair.  Gosh, I love my husband, he is so supportive of me.  Even last week when I met with some vendors I went on and on about how much I love my husband and how I picked the right guy to marry over 13 years ago. 

The hair thing has been the hardest part so far from the moment I shaved my head to wearing my wig out in public for the first time to now, not wearing my wig at all with my super short boy haircut.  Each day that goes by this week the stronger I get and more I really don't care if people stare at me and wonder why my hair is so short.  It feels good to just be me!  It is also approaching 100 degrees every day and it is so nice to not wear it and be so sweaty.  There isn't much I can do with my new style other than to get out of the shower and just comb down the sides and back.  The top does what it wants and it is shaping itself into a mow-hawk.  I figure I will just go with it and let my hair decide the style it wants to be for now.  I don't think I will ever fight with my hair again, I am just glad to have hair and for it to be growing in brown and not gray.  I almost think it is darker than before.  I love feeling my hair it is so soft and such a different texture than my wig.  It is growing fast and sometimes it grows over night.  Yesterday when I got up it was longer than it was the day before, I even got out the blow dryer to help the style a little bit and when I got to work Terry told me that she thought it looked like I had more hair on top than I did the day before.  I am so glad she said that because at first I thought I might be dreaming!